2015 better be a better journey then 2014 which has been a hard year for the van Dijk family were a house fire burned down all the belongings including two beloved sons Zephy four years old and Noah two years old.
Today we are actually 2 days shy of the 6th month "anniversary" since the fire changed our lives forever.
This morning Noelle actually had a realistic dream, she woke up in tears even after her 1st cup of coffee her 2nd cup of coffee she was still crying trying to explain what she dreamt.... Since the fire we've been praying for positive dreams relating Zephy and Noah and finally today was the day. The day that Remmy and I would drive 6+ hours to Salt Lake City on the slick and foggy roads on our way to the best burn unit this nation has.
They will be looking at any progress Remmy has had after his 3rd and 4th degree wounds.
Since I'm a musician I like to listen to music on these long rides and the only music I could find was Christmas music Noelle has left in the car.
The best album was the Apalachian Christmas music with mandolin, banjo, dip spit buckets and moonshine bottles.
I couldn't stop crying thinking about Noelle's dream but also how the boys, if they were still around would sing along with the songs in the same style...
To be honest I haven't had the best Holiday spirit although amazing friends and family from all over have tried to accommodate us the best they could (which we appreciate with all the outpouring of their love) with a donated tree at Nana's house
(Noelle's mom) since we couldn't cope emotionally having one in our temporarily house. Presents piled high around this tree. Thanksgiving @ Uncle Grobby's (Noelle's brother) girlfriends house in Thermopolis and New Years was nothing special, we just went to bed at 9pm praying that 2015 would better be a better year for us.
Today I read Isaiah 30:15 and wrote these notes. When we wait in quietness and confidence,we have everything to say to G'd especially, Thank You.
Salvation comes from God alone, we can fully trust him and be peacefully confident that he will give us strength. To face our difficulties we should lay down our well laid plans aside and allow him to act.
I appreciate you starting to put feelings to "paper." It is something I struggle with since my loss too. I do think it helps though. Many good thoughts for all of you.
ReplyDeleteThank you Amber, It's good that other people reading it, do respond. Expressing can be done in many ways including negative ways....it seems like a positive outlet for me....hopefully it'll be a positive read for others.
ReplyDeleteI look forward to reading all you have to share Feike! You and Noelle are such special human beings. Praying with and for you guys ---- 2015 will be a better journey. And may many more good dreams come your way. Love to the van Dijk crew!
ReplyDeleteThank Erica,
ReplyDeletePrayers are blessings......